assalamualaikum,
alhamdulillah, sejak akhir2 ni hati makin tenang apabila cuba menjadi seperti SITI KAHDIJAH. harap2 dapat teruskan perjuangan!
sedih...sedih...
sedih lihat sahabat wanita kini berpakaian. saya sendiri akui, saya bukan se'perfect' mana hendak beri teguran kepada kalian. tapi sedikit terkilan bila kalian berpakaian bukan seperti apa yang kalian akan jadi nanti. kalian bukan lagi akan jadi, malah sudah menjadi...sebagai seorang yang ber'title' 'ustazah' kalian harus sedar sendiri dimana letaknya kita. kita sudah menjadi public figure. ini bukan untuk dibanggakan, malah ini merupakan satu amaran, bahawa apa saja yang kita lakukan akan jadi perhatian. peringatan juga kepada si penulis ini.
mata saya tak terkelip bila melihat pakaian kalian, cantik, ayu, tapi ada yang tak kena. ingin saya tegaskan saya bukan se'perfect' mana hendak tegur kalian, tapi at least longgarkan apa yang patut. labuhkan apa yang patut. banggakah kalian dengan pakaian kalian? bangga kalau orang cakap kalian guru agama yang sempoi? tapi dalam hati menyumpah anda? ingat orang memandang dan orang menilai. pujian yang dilontarkan kekadang boleh menolak anda ke lembah neraka. jadi, ingatlah diri ini dan kawan2ku semua. cerminkan diri anda, bukan lihat apa yang zahir, tapi lihat apa yang batinnya. zahirnya nampak kemas, tutup semuanya, TETAPI adakah menepati syariat??
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tudung oh..tudung.
bermacam-macam stlye tudung ada kat pasaran sekarang ni. butterfly, yuna, shawl, ikin, syiria..apa lagi yang tak disebut? semua fesyen terkini. cantik, menarik.
TAPI, sayang ada yang terlalu jarang, terlalu singkat. sedih jugak kadang2 tak dapat nak merasa tudung style baru, kalau ada pun mahal tak payah cakap, nak beli pikiaq 2,3 kali jugak la.
tudung jenis shawl tu tak yah cakap la...memang sah2 tak boleh pakai, sudah la kecik, nipis wa jarang pulak tu. mak ai....ibarat kalau pakai pun macam tak pakai. even berbelit banyak pun, bila kat part yang patut tutup, still nampak...???apa kes?
> maaf ler kalau ad terasa, tapi itu kenyataan!!<
::satu NASEHAT::
nak pakai shawl, kena pikiaq bentuk muka sama, bentuk muka mesti tak terlalu bulat, kalau tak....pikiaq la sendiri, diri rasa cantik, orang yang tengok??? except ampa pandai adjust bentuk tudung, baru nampak sesuai. ingat kat abang aku, selalu gelak tengok stail tudung yang tak kena kat muka orang, mula2 rasa dia jahat, tapi bila dia expalin sebab2nya, rasa nak join gelak pun ada. aku pun kadang2 kena gelak tahap tertinggi gak dari dia.
TAPIKAN SEELOK-ELOKNYA, TAK YAH LA PAKAI SHAWL TU, TAK SESUAI(shawl kecik ye..!)
ni kes tudung syiria pulak, first tyme aku tengok kat tapak ekspo kat muar. mula2 nk beli jugak, bukan saja murah, tapi stail terbaru. huhuhuhu...ikut jugak perkembangan!
pakai2 je...opsss..." urm..tak pe la akak ek, saya tak jadik beli la." "len kali bawak yang labuh sikit ek"
>>al last dapat jugak miliki tudung syiria labuh, tapi harga....boleh beli 4 tudung syiria regular...(pedih jugak)
tudung pilihan terkini!! tudung butterfly!
haa...bukan main nama rama2 tu...,labuh, senang pakai, kemas. ( tapi kena pandai kemaskan, kalau tak..tak jadik jugak!) dah macam2 fesyen tudung butterfly ni, ada yang owning dia berlapis,2,3 lapis, ada yang dwi-kaler. macam2 la...tapi sayang...poket tengah kering!!!! lain kali ye...hahhahahaha
Sunday, May 30
tudung oh...tudung
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Wednesday, May 26
cuba menjadi SITI KHADIJAH...
salam...
entri kali ni mungkin agak berbaur emosi yang tak setabil. bertembung pula dengan tyme2 exam ni memang pemangkin kepada ketidaksetabilan....( ayat pun tau tgh tak stabil)
tiba2 aku terpanggil untuk menulis tajuk post kat atas...even exam akan berlangsung lagi sejam, aku dah stop menelaah, otak dah jam. RAM dah tak boleh jalan.
tak pa la...kalau baca lagi pun bukan nak masuk kan?? hahahahaha
ok berbalik kepada tujuan asal
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pada pagi yang hening, aku bangun dengan longlai, dgn mata yang agak2 tak terbuka berjalan menuju ke toilet. air yang dingin pun tak dapat menyegarkan mata aku yang sangat kronik mengantuknya.
tapi dah alang2 bangun apa kata aku bermunajah kepada-Nya. seyes tetiba ja aku rasakan kekuatan yang luar biasa ketika bercerita cinta kepada-Nya. butir2 mutiara mengalir laju tanpa aku paksa. MasyaALLAH hebat magis tahajud di waktu begini.
entah kenapa tetiba aku terasa macam nk cuba menjadi SITI KHADIJAH. (full stop)
~the end~
Thursday, May 20
mana nak CHEKAU nie??
hari ni aku terkena tamparan hebat bukan singgah di pipi, tapi di hati...ceewah ayat mantop.
ku terima panggilan dari my mom! so glad my mom dah ok sikit. maybe sebab tukaq suasana, jalan-jalan makan angin. tapi tu la mula2 aku pun macam tak percaya tapi kena percaya. sakit mak aku bukan sakit perubatan tapi sakit gangguan. gangguan apa? pikiaq sendiri. aku bukan tak percaya tapi, benda2 cam ni pun makhluk jugak, maybe mak aku pun lemah sebab sakit so no wonder la kan...
tapi apa2pun lepas keluar dari rumah mom's condition dah makin okies...(^__^)
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ok berbalik kepada panggilan ummi aku. tengah elok2 drive keta mak aku call. aku angkat bajet terer la bawak keta sambil cakap tipon. last2 tgh elok cakap aku tertekan end call...abis la aku...sat g mak aku merajuk sebab aku letak cam tu ja...(*__*!)
elok parking, aku call balik, kerisauan + keresahan = senyum2 kambing...sbb apa? haa..tu raHsia perbualan aku dgn mak aku...(duh..taknak cerita baik tak yah tulis)
agak panjang jugak la perbualan kami berdua...diselangi gelak ketawa, ayat2 pedas dari mak...fuh..lagi pedas dari ayam KFC yang baru tu..." adik kalau gelak tu pelan2 sikit, jalan slow2, cakap sopan2..." mak ai...susah tu nk ubah.
~ akanku choba wahai ibuku..~
tapi ayat last yang mak aku cakap membuatkan aku terpikiaq kat mana aku nak chekau ni???
" apa2pun adik, mak nak yang macam tu." (ayat penegasan)
pergh...ni kalau nk carik cam tu, mau naik beruban kepala, last2 aku cakap, "mak je la yang carikkan, malas la.." (ayat pemati)
" mak doakan je...adik kena usaha sendiri." (aduh kena balik)
tapi seyesly, sampai sekarang aku masih terkenang kata2 mak aku tu...aku nk duduk tak senang, pejam tak lelap, baca buku tak masuk...tapi yang penting makan tetap kenyang...(^__^)
p/s: thanks to my rumet, donut tiramisu yg sodap!
-tetiba rasa cam nk tukaq nama haris.taj -----> makan.sedap-
ku terima panggilan dari my mom! so glad my mom dah ok sikit. maybe sebab tukaq suasana, jalan-jalan makan angin. tapi tu la mula2 aku pun macam tak percaya tapi kena percaya. sakit mak aku bukan sakit perubatan tapi sakit gangguan. gangguan apa? pikiaq sendiri. aku bukan tak percaya tapi, benda2 cam ni pun makhluk jugak, maybe mak aku pun lemah sebab sakit so no wonder la kan...
tapi apa2pun lepas keluar dari rumah mom's condition dah makin okies...(^__^)
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ok berbalik kepada panggilan ummi aku. tengah elok2 drive keta mak aku call. aku angkat bajet terer la bawak keta sambil cakap tipon. last2 tgh elok cakap aku tertekan end call...abis la aku...sat g mak aku merajuk sebab aku letak cam tu ja...(*__*!)
elok parking, aku call balik, kerisauan + keresahan = senyum2 kambing...sbb apa? haa..tu raHsia perbualan aku dgn mak aku...(duh..taknak cerita baik tak yah tulis)
agak panjang jugak la perbualan kami berdua...diselangi gelak ketawa, ayat2 pedas dari mak...fuh..lagi pedas dari ayam KFC yang baru tu..." adik kalau gelak tu pelan2 sikit, jalan slow2, cakap sopan2..." mak ai...susah tu nk ubah.
~ akanku choba wahai ibuku..~
tapi ayat last yang mak aku cakap membuatkan aku terpikiaq kat mana aku nak chekau ni???
" apa2pun adik, mak nak yang macam tu." (ayat penegasan)
pergh...ni kalau nk carik cam tu, mau naik beruban kepala, last2 aku cakap, "mak je la yang carikkan, malas la.." (ayat pemati)
" mak doakan je...adik kena usaha sendiri." (aduh kena balik)
tapi seyesly, sampai sekarang aku masih terkenang kata2 mak aku tu...aku nk duduk tak senang, pejam tak lelap, baca buku tak masuk...tapi yang penting makan tetap kenyang...(^__^)
p/s: thanks to my rumet, donut tiramisu yg sodap!
-tetiba rasa cam nk tukaq nama haris.taj -----> makan.sedap-
Monday, May 3
Everything is going back to normal ( ^_^ )
Praise to Allah, Alhamdulillah thank you Allah cause giving me the chance to feel like normal again.
Praise to Allah because He make my life full of joy and happiness. Sometime He tests me with a lot of hardness but in the end, He gives me the feeling that I can’t describe here. ALLAHUAKBAR!
As I written here before, both my dad and my mom were staying at hospital. For my mom, she just stays at hospital about 1 week. But my dad was the longest, near 3 months! For him it was a toughest time to stays at hospital. Just imagine that, he never been in ward since he was a child, but right after his retirement, straight away he was tested by Him. A lot of our planning was postponed. I’m quite frustrated but then I realize that, these were already stated by Him, we as the khalifa just can plan what we want.
Alhamdulillah, my dad was discharge from hospital yesterday on 2 MAY 2010 at 3 p.m. it was great news for my family. We all prepared all his favorites foods, prepared a bed for him. My dad starts counting the time passes, 36 hours left, 24 hours left, 10 hours left…smile starts appear on his face, beam from ear to ear. Near 3 months I never see him smiling like that. He told every nurse that enters his room. “I’m going back tomorrow!” So glad see him smiling. Thank You Allah for giving back my dad. I miss him so much! Even though, he can’t walk like normal, just using wheelchair to move but it was relieve for us getting him back at home.
For my mom, she has lost some of her memories, lost her energy to walk properly, like dad she also use wheelchair to move around house. Her SLE’s disease was attacking her again! Attacking her brain make her lost some of her memories. Quite shock for me, it happen at the same time my dad was sick! Sometime she couldn’t remember the new things, my siblings and I had to remind her back. She looks so tense with these problems. She always ask me “ why mak become like this?” all I can say just “ don’t think so muck mak. Remember Allah, say the zikir a lot”.
Now I started to miss my ‘old’ mom, the one who I can share happiness and sadness with. The one who always listen to my ridiculous stories and giving me responds and advise. The one who always nagging at me for watching TV a lot, sleep a lot, talking nonsense a lot. The one who always I called every night, because if one night I don’t call her, she will call me back and ask me “ don’t you remember me adik? Are you angry with me adik? Don’t you miss me adik? Don’t you love me adik?” but now everything is change… she doesn’t call me, and in return if I call her, she ask me… “Who’s this?” only Allah knows what my feeling at that time. I have to explain to her who am I, and then she remembers. It was hard for me to accept my mom’s condition at first. But supports from my friends have given me the strength to face the reality. This is reality! – I miss you mom -
All I can say right now that I pray for Allah to give me back my normal life and He give me that. I have both my dad and mom at home, that is enough to make me feel like life is going back to normal again! And I praise Allah for His kindness on me! Thank You Allah, Alhamdulillah…ALLAHUAKBAR!
Praise to Allah because He make my life full of joy and happiness. Sometime He tests me with a lot of hardness but in the end, He gives me the feeling that I can’t describe here. ALLAHUAKBAR!
As I written here before, both my dad and my mom were staying at hospital. For my mom, she just stays at hospital about 1 week. But my dad was the longest, near 3 months! For him it was a toughest time to stays at hospital. Just imagine that, he never been in ward since he was a child, but right after his retirement, straight away he was tested by Him. A lot of our planning was postponed. I’m quite frustrated but then I realize that, these were already stated by Him, we as the khalifa just can plan what we want.
Alhamdulillah, my dad was discharge from hospital yesterday on 2 MAY 2010 at 3 p.m. it was great news for my family. We all prepared all his favorites foods, prepared a bed for him. My dad starts counting the time passes, 36 hours left, 24 hours left, 10 hours left…smile starts appear on his face, beam from ear to ear. Near 3 months I never see him smiling like that. He told every nurse that enters his room. “I’m going back tomorrow!” So glad see him smiling. Thank You Allah for giving back my dad. I miss him so much! Even though, he can’t walk like normal, just using wheelchair to move but it was relieve for us getting him back at home.
For my mom, she has lost some of her memories, lost her energy to walk properly, like dad she also use wheelchair to move around house. Her SLE’s disease was attacking her again! Attacking her brain make her lost some of her memories. Quite shock for me, it happen at the same time my dad was sick! Sometime she couldn’t remember the new things, my siblings and I had to remind her back. She looks so tense with these problems. She always ask me “ why mak become like this?” all I can say just “ don’t think so muck mak. Remember Allah, say the zikir a lot”.
Now I started to miss my ‘old’ mom, the one who I can share happiness and sadness with. The one who always listen to my ridiculous stories and giving me responds and advise. The one who always nagging at me for watching TV a lot, sleep a lot, talking nonsense a lot. The one who always I called every night, because if one night I don’t call her, she will call me back and ask me “ don’t you remember me adik? Are you angry with me adik? Don’t you miss me adik? Don’t you love me adik?” but now everything is change… she doesn’t call me, and in return if I call her, she ask me… “Who’s this?” only Allah knows what my feeling at that time. I have to explain to her who am I, and then she remembers. It was hard for me to accept my mom’s condition at first. But supports from my friends have given me the strength to face the reality. This is reality! – I miss you mom -
All I can say right now that I pray for Allah to give me back my normal life and He give me that. I have both my dad and mom at home, that is enough to make me feel like life is going back to normal again! And I praise Allah for His kindness on me! Thank You Allah, Alhamdulillah…ALLAHUAKBAR!
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